To Me
Valley Village, CA 6/04/2019 Dear me, Today is a down day. Clinical depression is like a monster on your back. You never know if it's going to steer or just tag along for the ride. Today it woke up before me and planned the day's events. Be exhausted. Take two three-hour naps because you can't face anything else. Masturbate to feel something. Not speak a word out loud for over 10 hours. Feel nothing and have tears welling up behind your eyes. Fuck, this is shit. I we